Hello everyone! I hope all of you are doing well.
Yesterday, I watched a monologue of Prathamesh Barge on instagram. First, I would give you a synopsis of the monologue and then I would present my views on it.
"Prathamesh, played a character of a teen boy, Mukund Mishra who is from Jaunpur, Uttar Pradesh and is completing his engineering in one of the top colleges in Mumbai. His father is a principal at one of the schools of his village and also the most educated person over there. He wants Mukund to be a mechanical engineer and therefore, he restricted him from every enjoyment of his childhood like playing and hanging out with friends, no smart phones and etc in order to secure his future and achieve his goal. Mukund grew up and realised that being a mechanical engineer would be a tough course for him but he was in a state where he could not deny from doing engineering because of his father's fame and respect in the village as his father had announced all over the village that his son would become a mechanical engineer one day. When Mukund passed his 10th examinations, he secured 7th in the district and his father gifted him a small keypad mobile phone, promising him to buy a smart phone when he becomes an engineer. Mukund went to Mumbai for his further studies and he was startled seeing the infrastructure of the college, the huge playground, the canteen, lawns, etc., as he never had seen a city before as such. Everything was new for him and he didn't know to interact with people with cool words or make friends so he was left alone among his 80 batchmates. Rest of the students were also different from him, they were all very modern, fashionable, smartly dressed up in goggles, jackets, in KTM bikes, girls in mini skirts and with a very good spoken English mastery whereas, Mukund was a simple boy with a formal get up and poor english. He was very particular with his study stuffs. He would not bunk classes, would submit his assignments on time, have proper notes, etc. Exams were near and Mukund saw a difference in the behaviour of his batchmates. They started sitting with him on the first bench, spoke with him, roam about in canteens and corridors, took him to malls, restaurants, made him taste new dishes, girls started sharing their numbers, etc. In return, Mukund gave them his assignments, notes and lectures in the library. All these made him feel very excited, energetic and so special that all these moments were the best one of his life because everything was new for him. Mukind finished his two papers, he showed them to his friends and was very happy thinking that he made his place in their hearts.
Rest of the papers got cancelled because of the pandemic leading to lockdown. The watchman of his PG had a smart phone, which he didn't know to use, so he gave it to Mukund while he was in his working hours. Mukund created a Facebook account in his phone and sent friend requests to everyone of his college. In the lockdown, everything was shut down, everyone was at their house and there was nothing to do.
Mukund also didn't have anything to do except studying but how much one can do it, lockdown has stretched longer so he started sleeping too much, he got irritated of everything and got mood swings. He used to cry in a moment, get angry in a moment and then again felt depressed. He told about this problem to his father but his father instead of consoling him said, "it is just a phase of life, everybody goes through it, nothing to panic". He did not try to understand how Mukund was feeling and therefore, nobody was there to help him out of his anxiety and depression. Mukund never believed in anxiety and depression but when he himself went through this state of mind, he learnt that it existed. After going through these, he figured out a lot of things, he exclaimed that, "if we have an headache then they society gives us medicine but when the mental health of a person is not good then the society backs out and nobody is there with us." After few days, he checked his notications hoping for any message or response but there was none, instead he found a story on everybodies timeline. The story mentioned "if you feel lonely, talk to me. I better see you laughing instead of seeing in grief. Suicide is not an option...", Mukund was speechless seeing it. What an irony it was, since a month he had been trying to talk to someone or the other, he called and texted them all several times but nobody responded and now there is a story which suggested for conversations to overcome with depression. Mukund says, in every hour one student commits suicide but it doesn't bother to anyone because the dead one was not a famous personality. This thing is not a difference or discrimination between a famous person and common one, but it is what giving content to people and in this generation, content is more important than lives for everyone. Mukund expects to have the further weeks, same depressed and lonely. He understood how it feels like to be lonely when there is no one around. He begs to all, to talk and listen to those people who are lonely or need help so that no lives be in risk."
Well, the monologue was just fantastic. It has expressed the situation of every other person's life who is going through this phase. There is a very big message given in this monologue for everyone, that people will be there when they need something from us but as soon as our work is finished in their lives we are no one to them just because we have no role or we do not match with their class of living, and then how the feeling is in that used up person is just pathetic. A year ago there was a time when I went through this situation, I wanted someone to talk to me so that I would speak my heart out and just vomit out all the feelings inside me and make myself feel lighter. Those days were very hard for me, but I have been fortunate enough to have few people in my life who stood with me when I needed. I lost hope when I saw nothing was working out and I asked for help to someone myself and he did it, though we don't talk much now because he is an introverted one and I don't like toh disturb him but I consider him to be the angel of my life. There are 2 more people, I would not name anyone but if they are reading they can well understand. It was obvious that they would not be able to stay with me for the lifetime or whenever I am in problem, they have their own lives as well and it took me sometime to understand this. They were with me, but after few days I was again lonely and felt the worst still I don't want to stop thanking them for supporting me in my bad times. It took me 4 months to overcome from that situation, thanks to my father because then he had engaged me in his work which helped me to stay away from my own thoughts and stuffs. That phase also taught me a lot of things and maybe changed me, my nature, my lifestyle drastically.
Watching this monologue, there is something I realised. I felt similar to those of Mukund's college friends who didn't listen to him when he needed but I never have put on any story such as they had put, I am always engaged in my personal stuffs only. Actually, it's like I don't have the thought even to know anything about others, it is neither that I don't want to know whether a person is dying or living and being self centered nor I am too much interested in the lives of others and would poke everyone. I just never had a thought of anything like that. Though, I would be obliged if anybody would find me eligible to hear their problems and help them out but what I have become is now, I just want to avoid people from my life the most I can. So, I don't even talk to anyone except few ones, I try to avoid talks with my family members also because I'm finding this meeting and talking with people very much congested. This might be because of my ambiverted nature but is not like I regret to be so, after seeing this monologue. The thing is, I get texts in a regular basis from many but I don't respond to any of those because I find talking to someone a very tough job as I don't know what to say what not and don't want to make things awkward. Now, I think that may be in those messages there might be someone like this guy, Mukund and I ignored it. May be I lost the opportunity to play my part in someone's life and I really regret it. I am sorry to those if I did something like this and I would better take care of it next time(it's only for serious and genuine issue's, not for casual hi bye and fun). This is the high time when these kinds of situation may occur in someone's life so we need to be aware and I would suggest everyone to be so strong that even if we don't have anyone beside us then also we would be fine with everything.
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